Suicide

Suicide. How easy a word it is to pronounce, the harder it is to understand the depth of the process it has. Why does one think to consider suicide as an end to everything? Why is it even a way or a thought or lets say a decision to quote, "I have had enough. I cannot take it anymore. May be that is how my life will be." The more deeper it is, the more thrones it will strike to scar your sentiments into a heart swallowing ones.

It just is not right. No one will ever understand how it feels. How I actually feel and how dark it is, how black everything feels, how thunderous does anger, depression and anxiety feel. No one will get it because it is in fact the evil we fail to fight against. No friends, no family, no soul mates feel spontaneous enough to battle with us. One day, fine they will make us laugh and try to take our mind of thinking we are depressed and hope that we will be fine soon. The second day, they will chat with us and the third day, we are again left blank with even worse hopes that we were taken care of but we were just sympathized in a hope that we will be back to the race of life. Irony, yet true and all by ourselves again.

You know the truth? The truth is nothing is free in this world. Even the oxygen you inhale has a charge sheet. The oxygen of peace and happiness costs wealth and not to dream big, ask big or greed to win the world. The air of rich and classy costs you your personal life, your family, your peace and most importantly relief. There is always a battle out there. And the oxygen for fame and founded costs you your own air of space and freedom. Whats crazy yet all so very true is our death is like a master of hide and seek. You never know when will it 'Boom' you from the back to knock you out of the game. Don't worry you are not only the one to face this. Today, your dog will be fine and wagging tail around  you and tomorrow she might be struck by a car just at the back road. Cold, isn't it but in fact the truth.

I would say the best way to beat death in its own game is to be the rider of your own life. 'Kaboom yourself.' Yes, that is how you can glorify your very own life without anyone's obligation and pain. End all the torture, you have suffocated enough, the swallow heart does not have to hold any responsibilities anymore. Get a rope, may be an electrical wire, a table and tie it to the ceiling and wrap it around your neck and just push the table away. It is that simple. It will just hurt a bit. Your leg will try to wiggle in the search of the table you push, your hands will try to hold onto the rope to prevent the process and suddenly your soul would not want to give up on life again.

You have been caged enough. Anxious, depressed and have had enough of all the stress.

And its okay. It is so just okay. You see a person who is admired by all, that charming guy, some movies make you cry like anything and some career goals stresses you little too much than one can handle. A lot to take out of this human emotions, very much fluctuating. Oh God!

But guess what bro? It is just okay to lay down and be easy with yourself. Yes bro, just get comfy on your bed, eat like crazy or may be dancing alone in any music you find. Go on, its your life. You control it right. You must have the remote of your life right with no access to death button. You can trespass that and kill yourself but life will do it anyway. Why to do so much extra work? Be lazy man! Just chill.

Take any big name, say Bill gates, Newton or Mother Teresa. Okay, Bob Marley! You name it.Yes, they have lodged their name in the hall of fame, their deeds amazingly stands up as an example and their achievements to be a magic for a common like you and me. Such magicians they are! Guess what, magicians die even though their magic trick stays behind. But those magicians won't know if their trick stayed or not. Will they, not until you try to find their soul or discover the after life secret, find them and tell them. Does Newton know that his theories are one of the best orgasms to the physics world? I hope he does! See bro, the point is you have to die one day. No, you don't need to be rich or famous or classy of what society sets the bar to be awesome. You know society is just a critic, who does not even give you one time meal to eat. Then, why bother to be their magician?

What this means you have to die right? Then why not postpone the process of killing own self? Why not choose the option to be happy? Then why do you seek to look life as a battle but in fact it is just a farm house waiting for you to planting the trees of your choice? Why to climb an Everest while climbing just another tree can be relaxing for you? Easy on you! Why choose the hard way if you can learn to accept the hardships like just another bacteria to the breathe you take. And, bacteria can be washed off bro. Just use alcohol contained sanitizers meaning - get tipsy with yourself, feel like you are a drunkard in the journey of life, and give a shot. (Not vodka shots though)

Man up. No no, just not like *up up* yet. Be a clown. Yes yes, Be a clown. Brilliant! So the idea is to be a clown and be that crazy, insane jolly joker of the magic show who jumps from inside and finds joke in everything, amusements in the blowing wind and dances on stressful telephone ring. *Tring Tring, Tring tring* Feel me bro, I m already a clown! And you are just thinking whether I make sense? Totally senseless! But does making sense every time will make you cool or immortal or happy? But being a clown surely will.

Clown and the jokes apart, you are free.

Be your own hero, your very own bloody best friend. Your soul mate best friend is you yourself. Go on a coffee date with yourself. You want to share your sorrows, write a letter and read it to motivate. You wanna make love to yourself, just freaking masturbate. Or may be take a shower, will you? You are your own best friend bro! Wouldn't you do anything it takes to help your best friend? You can take a call at 2 at night right? This time, you just gotta relax and sail like the boat who has no destination. The tide will just help you to man up, earn your career and just  stabilize the life logistics. Just fly like a free soul with an attitude to take sorrows and lone path as a chance to be happy. Rest, everything will just be fine! Absolutely, fine.